Arrrggggghhhhh Winter! We can all agree that this Winter has been a bad one. Very wet. Very muddy. Very windy. This seems to have put me into a deep set of the Winter Blues, a midnight blue of Winter if you will. My anxiety has been on quite a high which has made it really difficult for me to find the good things to focus on and my riding confidence with hacking seems to have plummeted. So all in all, like many of us equestrian folk, I had really had enough of Winter.
I get met by little glimpses of hope, the sun shining a little bit brighter and longer. The horses have begun to loose their winter coats, I’m having to get the baby oil out to prevent static and I even have had thinner layers on! Even though there have been these small hints of the drier, warmer weather I’ve still struggled with feeling positive. I seem to have been hit with a lot of challenges lately, including some fatigue and a bad back which has meant my riding has even been on the back burner. It’s difficult to remain positive all the time, I’m not sure it’s even possible and the longer I have stayed in this ‘Winter Midnight Blue’ I’ve questioned myself on whether I can get my positive outlook back at all.
Today though I spotted a daisy! As I was hobbling around poo picking the field, slipping in the mud and had my head spinning with all the things I have to deal with I caught sight of a little white and yellow thing, popping it’s pretty head through the muddy grass. I stopped myself and just stared at this little flower, anyone watching me probably thought I’d completely lost it. I then suddenly became aware of the warmth from the sun, the birds singing and the blue sky. How could I have not noticed all of these things before? I can tell you why, I was too busy in my head, worrying about my challenges. Focusing on the good things around me, seeing my horses enjoying 10 minutes, rug free with the sun on their backs and realising that although, yes, my field was muddy it was firmer than it had been for weeks. So I carried on poo picking the field, with a spring in my limp and continued to notice all the little daisies fighting their way through to the surface to enjoy the sunshine. Now, my challenges have not changed, just my attitude to them has. The little flowers have given me a reminder that there is always hope you just sometimes have to open your eyes from the darkness and look.
So, don’t forget to go spot the daisies.